from siberia: the fisherman's cooling room is a cave chinked out of a cliff of ice - there the fish lie swollen while the nomads chop wood in the snow & while my foreign tongue gags on the names of lost cities & apartment buildings hazily appearing now through the window of my helicopter - as we circle the lights of nurry urengoy - hastily built sitting atop a field of natural gas - lots of it frozen within a red bottle by a stubbornly icy cork (thus read my - hmmm suspiciously poetic briefing crumpled grimly in my gravel-encrusted mitten) "so you see chuck" he breathed along the thousand mile cable connected to my alaskan telephone "this is the place where only the gallant survive - where there is no turning back so if the going gets rough - " gahhrrr! "moonlight and vodka takes me away" croons the one-time concert performer to an incomprehending audience of short time miners & oil riggers thawing in the bar what else is there to do the alcohol slides like penguins from glaciers down throats & karloff's tears flow in buckets while the men sway from side to side now and then grunting as they discover the faces behind the frozen beards they worked with on that damned oil pipeline the dream of a balalaika: slowly crushed beneath a timber truck o god i want to go home this place this place of deja vu it's riddled with shanty towns & factories & refineries & summer fun & dirt bikes & ballet & grizzly bears & snowy ideal resort frozen lakes & oil derricks & aeroplanes & national geographic photographers & helicopters & heads full of maps & jigsaw names & red faces & hangovers & a terrified memory of a young boy crucified on a bare flat table wrapped in chunks of ice so his body will cool & his pulse slow enabling the surgeon to get at his heart
This poem was first published in Typecast (1992).