I
"Morten, who was not so good to English,
wore oversized glasses that made his face
look crooked, as if he had been punched,
on a train, by some thug from Århus. We
corresponded only very briefly, when we
were both in primary school, but yesterday
I felt his presence in the capital, København,
like a scab slowly peeling itself off my face.
The things he liked to do, his hobbies and
favourite sports, elude me, though football
must be in there somewhere. I am left with
a simple image: a boy carrying a backpack
and wearing a black beanie, travelling alone
on a train in the so-called happiest country
in the world, watching as fields of grey metal
glide by in complete silence. Maybe I should
blame Peter Høeg for putting the image there.
I mean, who else? I want to write him a letter,
ask him if Morten drew a slash through his Os,
the way that I used to cross my Ts, dot my Is."
II
"We'll imagine that for Morten, at his age anyway,
the idea of a girlfriend was preposterous. School
being the great equaliser, we'll creepily approve of
the idea that he was bashed, daily. His parents,
having also been victims of working class hate,
were powerless to stop it, despite their letters
to the schools department, the weekly protests.
You can guess why Morten's on the train, then:
he's running away to København, or else further,
across the Øresund Bridge to Malmö. We'll allow
him to get that far, perhaps further still, before
the Polisen corner him in Lund, their windbreakers
catching him in a patriarchal embrace, knocking
his glasses from his face, spilling the contents
of his backpack all over the icy platform for anyone
to see. No papers, barcode - no true identity
to speak of. It's a fair way from Århus to Lund
but his father drives virtually non-stop through
a horizontal blizzard, pausing once to pay a toll
on the Øresund Bridge, and a second time to cry."
III
"I only ran away that one time, fleeing violence
the way refugees flee internment camps, or else
momentary ceasefires. They amount to the same
thing: entering that gap in space between days,
running fast like my old football coach taught me,
head down, fists like pistons. I thought my black
tracksuit would camouflage me against the night,
the mean streets of Vesterbro. As it turned out,
in København I couldn't even leave the station,
surrounded by Tivoli's dregs and angel's wings.
I rode black on a train bound for Malmö instead,
got as far as Lund before the future caught up
with me. I waited for my father in a juvenile cell
crowded with boys who jeered, then broke my
glasses. I managed to get one solid punch in
before being king-hit from behind but it was
worth it. Then on the long drive back to Jutland
for some reason I recalled that Australian boy
who pretended to be my penpal for a month or
two, back in primary school. Hvad var hans navn?"
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