feeling after fear

when you could see it coming 
    coming at you like a giant 
giant ball of lead or something
    something heavy cold & dead

death contained a hint of fear
    fear faded & quickly passed 
passed to an even higher plane 
    planet heavy cold & gone;

going to some future island
    island where the lonely go 
go further & "find yr feelings"
    feelings heavy dead & grey

greying like a knitted jumper
    jumper of some football player
player watch the football flying 
    diving cold dead gone & wet

wetter than a rain-cold kitten
    kitten washed up on a beach
beach bereft of calypso music  
    music heavy, wet & wild 

wilder than a lover's tongue
    tongue it warms you up like fire
fire clinging to yr dim youth
    young face ringing hot & loud

louder than the cries of years
    years that rippled like a pool
pool it only sought to fill you
   you're the feeling after fear